Hi, and welcome to my picture-less post, the computer to which the decent camera downloads is having a new fan fitted, and frankly I think I could do with going in the shop too. This having Anna starting school lark has really thrown me a curve ball and I don't know why.....well actually I know exactly why but that makes it even worse. For the last seven years I have been a Mum, I have worked two days a week throughout but essentially I have been caring for my children, holding their little hands through those early days and now I feel redundant. I didn't exactly have a career before but I guess I was always thinking in the back of my mind that the most important job of having children was yet to come, and now, what's next? It could be a really exciting time, the course, a little more freedom, but for now it just all seems a little empty. I have no idea how to define myself, the fact that I make things has always been so important to me but now even that seems hollow, though it is keeping my sane at the moment (I think). The silliest bit is that Anna is only at school for two and a half hours a day at the moment so the best/worst is very much still to come. I don't want to fill my three days with coffee and chats, shopping and housework. I can do a bit of those things but it isn't enough and I'm not sure I really value what the City and Guilds might do for me, I'm not sure I value myself enough. The other thing that scares me is that the course is distance learning, so it won't get me any contact, any reason to slap a grin on my face and look cheery, which I reckon is the first step to feeling that way. I'm not sure I have ever written quite such a heart on my sleeve type post before but I am hiding at the moment and I really don't want to shut the door completely, I like to think that the world is counting to ten and will come to find me in just a minute.
Thanks for visiting my blog. I am always glad to make contact with others who maybe pick up confetti from party tables, keep all those little packets of spare beads and buttons that come attatched to new clothes, who stroke fabric ......for hours...whilst gazing into the middle distance. (I cannot believe I am the only one who is maybe half woman/half magpie!) Please take the opportunity to have a glance at my latest 'fiddlings'. Enjoy fellow fibre freaks!